A journal entry, 17 August 2016 e.v.
You make mistakes. And from the mistakes, you learn to make things better.
In fact, the only real mistakes are trivial. Everything is part of the puzzle of Becoming.
The past defines you, but it is needless to let it drain your energy. You can let it go. Guilt and regret will not make you better. Think of this day and the possibilities in it, think of tomorrow and the next week. Think of the coming month, and think of the years and decades you may still have ahead. What am I doing today so that it 1) fulfills the potential already here and now, and 2) echoes far into the yet-to-be?
It’s not that you should do more, but that you should weed out the unnecessary and harmful. “Do nothing as much as you can.”
The Work is hard so that you could learn.
In one’s current state of Work one experiences the Need to Work in some direction. The reason for that Need and direction can be experienced more or less rationally, but the deepest reason for it often stays in Rûna, in the realm of Mystery. Only later when some realizations of one’s Work become crystallized one finds more deeply why one was Working in that direction. The impulse that keep Initiation going forward comes from the Darkness of one’s Being, from ab, one’s Heart. It is suprarational (and “religious” or “spiritual”) in its nature. Once the Need of that impulse is taken under Work one then directs oneself towards it rationally and with magic. In the process also more unconscious layers of one’s mind get involved in it and eventually there may come crystallizations that involve different levels of one’s Being. Then one Knows more deeply what it was that was calling one in the Darkness. At that point the Heart is, of course, already some steps “ahead”, calling deeper into the Darkness of one’s Being.
– Tapio Kotkavuori. Aletheia vol. 1, p. 107.
In order to realize (as in make it a reality) an ongoing process of Xeper and Remanifest, you need a few ingredients:
- You need to begin to understand your current state of being honestly and completely. Who are you now, where are you now, and what exactly has contributed to you being what and where you are here and now?
- You need to begin to differentiate between your needs, desires and interests.
- You need to combine the two above into a feedback loop that helps you refine what you can find with what you can do.
Add the pressure of tangible Work on these areas and you are well on your way.